Hitting the wall

It’s June. How did that happen? First we had a winter that felt like it would never end. Then a spring that never really got off the ground, and now we are into June. I know that the ice storm and the brutal winter will fade into our memories as we start to enjoy the best time of the year. When we get outside, take off the layers and enjoy. I can already see the pile of Naot sandals piling up on the mat at my door.

I am writing today to ask for some advice actually.

I have had a desk job for almost 25 years. Hard to believe I started when I was 5, but yes, it is true.

Over that time I have worked in call centres with vending machines in the kitchen, to working at home when I had my own kitchen about 15 steps away from my office, and now beside a starbucks. I think you know where I am going with this. The evil ‘snack monster’.

The snack monster doesn’t just attack people with desk jobs. I am sure that if you are a sales rep or on the road with your job, that at some point in your day, you are looking around your car for something that you can eat. Some leftover granola bar that your kids didn’t eat, or fishy crackers or even your baby’s cheerios. I am sure you are smiling now if you have eaten of the above mentioned items. 

I know that for me I hit the wall (like a lot of people do) between 3-4pm.

I would love to know what you pack for ‘hit the wall’ moments.

I have promised myself with the start of the new month and the second half of this year that I want to make better choices. I know it will mean more preparation, more money at the grocery store, but I think that the effort will be worth it.

I am looking forward to hearing your hit the wall snack suggestions!!

live your best life,

Lisa

Reflecting

It has been quite the week. I am just now sitting in my condo listening to music and reflecting on the past seven days.

Last Wednesday night I posted on facebook that I had a “zit” three days before my high school reunion. Little did I know, that when I woke up the next morning, it would turn into something much more than just a “zit”.

By Thursday when I got to work it was swollen and starting to be painful. I went to a walk in clinic and was given oral antibiotics and topical ointment. I was advised to keep warm compresses on it and it should be fine.

By Friday morning, my face had litterally blown up. I went to work, but it was clear that I had to seek further medical treatment. So I headed off to Mackenzie Health ER department. If you have had to visit the ER you know what I was in for – a very long day/night. My phone had no juice left (seemed to be a running theme this week) and I called my mom to say that I was going to lose communication with her. She came to the hospital (charger in hand) to stay with me.

I was given two 400mg Advil for the pain. It was clear that was not going to do it. My face continued to swell from my lips to my earlobe and my chin to my eye socket.The pain was the worst I have ever experienced. I was then hooked up to an IV where I received antibiotics, anti inflammatory meds and morphine for the pain. It was horrible, I don’t even know if I could describe it to you.

I was asked if I had any dental surgery recently? Tooth pain? No and no. They did an ultra sound on my cheek to see if I had salivary gland infection. No.

The diagnosis was facial cellulitis. It is very serious and needs to be treated with IV antibiotics. I went home with the IV in my hand and told to come back at 3:30am for my next dose of meds. One more trip at noon on Saturday before going to the CCAC clinic at Branson to pick up my IV pump pack (see photos). It is a pack that contains 3 doses of meds over a 24 hour period and a pump connected to your IV to dispense the medication.

I am lucky that up to this point in my life I have not had a broken limb, or been unable to care for myself. This was different. The IV was in my hand which of course is problematic. Simple things became difficult.

I tried to get dressed on Sunday. For twenty minutes I struggled to put a bra on. I kept getting the IV wire tangled in the strap. After 20 minutes I gave up and put a bathing suit top on under my shirt. It served its purpose I suppose.

After being very vocal on social media over the weekend it was time to just lay low. It was very hard to type and I was really not feeling well. I didn’t go to work and basically slept and rested. I only left to go to get the med pack changed daily at Branson.

Last night I had to wait again for re-assessment on the infection. If the doctor thought it was healing well, I would be discharged from the IV meds and move onto oral meds. I was hoping and praying that I had healed enough, as I didn’t know how much more I could take of the IV. Thankfully the doctor thought I was okay to move to the oral meds and discharged me. One more night of me and Mr. IV.

Tonight I had the IV taken out. How do you spell RELIEF? I am now on a 7 day course of oral meds. I hope and pray that this works and I can say that I am finally in the clear.

I look around my apartment and realize the impact of being unwell and living alone. The dishes are piled high in the sink, the laundry is overflowing and everything is in disarray. I went to the salon to have my hair washed and dried yesterday because I was unable to do it myself. It is something that one may not give too much thought about until you are in this situation. If you share your life with someone, there is someone there to help pick up the pieces when you are in need.

I really do appreciate all the facebook messages, private messages, texts etc. It really meant a lot to have the outpouring of caring that you all showed.

In good health,

Lisa

I wish you enough

I don’t know who wrote this poem below, but it was part of a ‘share’ I read on facebook, and I wanted to share it here.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.