I have worked from my home for the last two and a half years. During that time, I haven ‘t had to buy a lot of ‘work’ clothes, because when you work from home, it consists of a very casual wardrobe. Yes, I get dressed every day, but it could be leggings and a t-shirt.
One thing I can say about being a plus size person over the years, was that I had a lof of clothes. When I found something that I like and it looked good on me, I would buy it in every colour that they made the item in.
My closets and drawers were always full. A couple summers ago I had my bedroom closet organized with new shelves and hanging areas, and Martine was shocked about how much clothes I actually owned. At one point I didn’t have any empty hangers in my closet, every one was filled with a shirt, skirt, or pair of pants.
Until now…..
Back at the start of the year, I tried on everything in my closet and finally decided to get rid of everything that no longer fit me. That was practically everything. Old mother Hubbard, went to her cupboard, and her cupboard was bare – that is now my cupboard, and my drawers.
I am not complaining about becoming a smaller, better me, but at the same time, it is a struggle emotionally. To try on clothes, and see the person you were at one time and now the person that you are (are becoming) it very emotional.
This past weekend I had Edna take a picture of me wearing a jacket that used to fit me. I haven’t worn it in a LONG time, but yes, I used to wear this jacket.
Thankfully, I have wonderful friends, who gave me gift cards for the mall, and for two clothing stores that I shop at so that I can buy some new clothes for the spring. But the problem is when you need everything new, you can’t go crazy, because this is not the end of the journey, it is just a pit stop.
I am looking forward to shopping, but with trepidation. I tried to buy a new pair of jeans about a month ago and it was a very stressful experience. After trying on 12 pairs of jeans, two meltdowns (one with tears) in the dressing room, I left the store, unsuccessful. So, I decided not to buy anything new until spring…..
So, with this new season, comes new clothes to hang in my empty closet!